First of all, thank you for coming to read what I have shared. Feel free to form whatever opinion about me that you'd like. I try to hide that I'm hurting inside When I'm asked, I just say that I'm fine I'm sorry, but that's a lie On the inside im dying, i'm crying and wondering why Meanwhile I contemplate ending my life Life's no game, you don't win a prize Happiness always comes with a price I'm an addict and I can't help it Yeah I know it's fuckin' selfish But don't tell me you know how it is When you ain't ever felt like this You think this is the life that I'd choose You try to walk in my shoes Then you'll understand why I use I sit down and I take a hit off my pipe Doin' what I can just to feel alright It helps me hide the pain from my past But the feeling just never lasts I'm trying everything to numb my mind Trying my best just to feel fine Trying hard to keep it together But I don't think I will ever get better I feel like I'm stuck, trapped Under a constant attack I'm being held back You're hurting me and everyone can see But I still can't leave Tired of fighting with you All we ever do is argue and I don't know what to do So I follow my role models Drown myself in liquor bottles Struggling with mental health I know I'm only hurting myself But it's the only thing that helps It's time to end it This relationship is over It's time for me to get sober