If you are looking at this for yourself or for a friends, you have my deepest sympathy. But you should know that I was in your position for most of 2023 and I’m doing well now. You can do this! I bought this book off EBay, it was highly recommended. Honestly, I never read it. These head scarves, or chemo scarves, were my favorite. Very comfortable and cute! I highly recommend them. Please reach out with any questions you have.